Those Are Something Beyond Our Minds
When you wanted something so bad, but you just couldn’t have it, not because we’re not able to pursue it but it just because you couldn’t. Those are something beyond our minds.
I was talking with someone whom I just meet not so long ago. We talked about everything from simple things to the most complicated things. And in the middle of our conversation, this question came from this person.
It started when we were talking about dreams, both of us believe that every person deserves to have a dream and try to pursue it run after their dreams but what if it comes to a dream that you couldn’t get it. It isn’t because you’re not able to get it. Its just you can’t have it. It made me silent for a moment to flashback about the past. I tried to find if I have any of that kind of dreams. And my mind stopped at one memory that definitely I wanted to erase from my life. I never imagined this conversation would have led me to this memory again.
As I turned my face to that person, “No, I don’t have one like that.” I even surprised with myself with this answer after I tried to be honest with everything but it turned out like that. That person had left after a little while into the conversation that we had but I still sat there in the same place wondering about that memory, about why I wanted to erase it so bad.
Scars. Yes, scars. Because it had left scars and it would never fade or it was scars that left a wound upon me and never healed. No matter how hard I tried to figure it out, but it always came back to that word. Scars.
———- This note ends in that word. I left it and never come back to continue this writing. I even forget when I wrote this one. And more I tried to think or remember about it. I just couldn’t recall it back. I don’t know if it’s because the scars had healed or not.
A friend of mine once said to me that sometimes there are some memories that people have that are so painful that couldn’t recall it back, but somewhere deep down in your heart, that pain is still there waiting to be healed and then, I wondered if it was true.
That’s what we called something beyond our mind. It shows that we are human and we still have limit in our life because if we know and understand everything, everything that happened in this world, including in our life then we probably no longer human but God.