It Is About Making Ideas Happen From Random Musings
I used to write about random things that came into my mind. It usually followed random conversations or situations I had experienced. That is why most of my posts were about my musings or thoughts. I called it making ideas happen from random musings.
Yesterday was my birthday, I spent a bit of my time to read again this blog from the beginning and I surprised about what I did write, I did not expect that I would write such things then that when I realized the meaning why I was starting doing these whole blogging stuff. I really want to write about this since back then. I was intending to write about the journey I would suppose to walk, but then everything changed in the middle of it so do this blog.
To see everything clearly is to understand the situation better.
There were many things happened and most of it, I didn’t understand why it happened. I did not have anyone to talk with or perhaps I just did not know where to start so that’s how it was started. I took a book and write. Guess book has been never enough so I was typing, typing and typing to make myself clear about the situations. To make myself understand about the circumstances and what I have to do next.
I did have a lot of writing in my Evernote, which many of them were stopped in the middle of writing, I might did not get to the end of it or still did not understand the situations, then when I have more time I would get back and pick off one them to try to finish it.
It is a way to send my prayer.
It is not about trends, it is about my life or perhaps about your life or about me and people. For some people, it might be easier to write because they just meant to be a writer, but it did not work for me. For some posts, I would spend sitting thinking for hours, sometimes for days until I have come to close where the writing is going to end and it usually helped me understand the situations.
Sometimes when I feel I could not make it, when it was so hard to see my direction, then I write, it gave me something to help me to be strong. It helps to send my prayer which I could not say it with my mouth.
All people have their own way of praying. Some people, they lock themselves in the closed door to pray, they go to the secret place and send their prayer. How about me? I walk a long walk while listening to the music and talk with my God or I write, write, write and write. I delete, delete and delete then I write, write and write. Sometimes tears shed from my eyes. I delete it because I might did not accept what I write, but then I keep writing. Sometimes I stop in the middle of my writing, but then I continue writing again. In the end, most of it, I surrender to what I am going to write, then it surprises that I always get to the conclusion which I do believe God works on it.
Learn by doing is always the best thing to do.
I am Indonesian. My mother tongue is Indonesian even though my family spoke in a few different languages. I spoke English since I was in young age, my work environment is using English too, but I still feel I am lacking in many ways of the English. That’s why I decided to erase my old Indonesian blog and switch to English in order to improve my English writing ability which I found more difficult than the other aspect.
People tend to say that I am a good speaker, but I am not. Many times in my life I feel like I am a really introverted person. To start a conversation is not an easy thing to me. I always amazed by the people who do video blogging and I wish I could do something like them also but then I realized writing is my thing. It is still always easier to write than to talk, I admit that.
To understand yourself is to understand people.
Becoming yourself is really hard and confusing, but it is a process. I was completely the eager beaver back then. It was often not cool to be the person that puts themselves out there, and I have often gotten into the process mercilessly. I found that ultimately if you truly pour your heart into what you believe in, even if it makes you vulnerable, but believe that amazing things can and will happen.
Life is about the people you meet and the things you create with them so I go out and start creating. I found that if I’m trying to understand myself then to understand people is the answer. To understand people is to share what is in you so people also understand you that is why I decided to blog and post it.
Whether its traveling to a place you’ve never been to before, discovering creative ideas, or taking a risk in business. You will find more excitement when you treat them as part of an adventure instead of a mere daily activity.
As what Steve Jobs said; And the only way to do great work is to love what you do. If you haven’t found it yet, KEEP LOOKING. DON’T SETTLE. As with all matters of the heart, you’ll know when you find it.
As we [or probably myself] see in our life pictures, we surprised by the things we thought we couldn’t do but we finally did it. It’s been 3 years since the very first time my English blog started. I think I would need more consistency to do these whole things. I’ll keep surprising myself and people who always say that I wouldn’t be able to do it.
Don’t let someone who gave up on their dreams take you out of yours.